Told Bea about renting parking space..feel bad but really. Lori told me at beginning of March that Carol was selling her apartment and Lori wanted to rent my parking space.  She also said she doesn’t like my space on outside of building with snow blowing in on her Porsche but her mother could park there and Lori would park in Bea’s spot.  However,  the process of selling could take a month or two and they are driving to Florida  for the month of April  so I would be on hold with no surety. So at her convenience I should have refused to rent today and wait another month or two ..losing money. Am I wrong…I don’t think so but maybe I should have given her a choice. Problem is…I really really needed the money this month and even with the full amount of seven months rental (to October 31) I still will not be able to meet all my obligations and next month is tax month which brings its own debt. She is rich and likely will not understand and I would not have felt good about her having to pay me while she still had a parking spot that she had paid for on a contract she cannot get money back from. If she pays monthly, then she should have moved more quickly and informed Carol that end of  March she was leaving and locked me in or told me to give her first refusal. I sort of said okay she could have it and have gone back on my word. I feel bad. I hate feeling bad.   Her brother died November 25th and her father February 17th and she is dealing with her mother and probably too stressed for picayune things like this but it does seem like she has time for a lot of things and is perfectly capable and acts like she knows better than the rest of us how things should be done…so she should have put her money where her mouth was.  This is all bluster trying to make myself feel less like a schmuck.  I rented the space for seven months…hell it might take seven months to get the unit in shape and sold…who knows.   I do not care a button what Lori thinks but I hate to have upset Bea because she will have to listen to Lori rant about my faithlessness and feel bad that her friend disappointed/failed her daughter.  Rock and a hard place.

First day of spring, sun is shining, lake is still solid white.  Ash has bad diarrhea with pink spots…reminds me that vet visit will be on list of money exits next month.




Just got notice from vet’s office that Ash is due for shots.  Rabies is mandatory in my city but the combo is not and I had decided against letting her have it.  She is sniffing around fourteen years, she has not been outside to put paw on ground for five month this winter and even when we did go out it was never for long walks and she is not one for picking up stuff or sniffing other dogs.   The difficulty is…trying to stand fast against vet disapproval as they try to guilt you into something.   Information is so confusing.   As a human I have lived 95% of my life not getting booster shots for anything…so why does my dog need a booster every year (okay after decades they finally changed it to every three years).   Then there is all the controversy about vaccinations altogether.   My problem with vaccinations across the board is…combos.   I think each disease they are vaccinating for should be individual with time for the body to produce the antibodies for that disease before going on to the next.   If it is expense…they could stagger the shots …one type per year on annual exam.  That is my personal gut feeling which will stand me in good stead when I do not allow the vet to give Ash that particular shot.    I find it so hard to say no…anxiety attacks and stress but I am learning how and not backing away from the challenge of standing up for myself and what I believe…only took me 73 years.


If I could upload the covers of my zines from my computer, and copy and paste information on the content of the zines, add the publisher and date of publication…all the same information demanded by Goodreads to this blog…would I do it?  The fine thing about Goodreads was…as I entered every zine read for my 2017 challenge, at any time I could go in and see a full page of thumbnails of covers of all the books I had read that year.  A very pleasing thing to do.  That is what I want in an app to track my reading.  Will have to keep looking.


Lost all of my Pros zine entries to Goodreads…days of work.  I really wish there was an app that was as good but not as commercial so that I could enter my reading without arbitrary rules.  The librarian manual says fan fiction is allowed but zines are not.  Which makes no sense whatsoever.   Reading Librarian posts today and someone is adding a ‘book’ with 14 pages.  In my mind, nothing with 14 pages qualifies as a book.  There are two types of zines and fan fiction zines, with as many as 200 pages, full colour artwork cover, either novel length or anthology of completed stories with names of authors, name of publisher, date of publication…qualifies it as a book by any standards.  To exclude them and include graphic novels as books is asinine.   On the other hand, if I was lucky enough to find an app that is suitable could I face the work of re-entering 300 books…


I will be weaning myself off Goodreads. I read the manual and thought I was allowed to enter fan fiction zines. After three plus years, I woke to my 2018 Challenge decimated. I thought it was an error so I spent a day and re-entered 50 zines that had been wiped off. Today I logged on to enter yesterday’s read and found someone has wiped out all those entries plus more. No warning, no note to me saying you read the rules wrong…just arbitrary removal. I find that a bit impolite and unkind. I was already a bit offside with winning reader of the year having 1800 books READ in one year to her credit..which I find impossible. She might have entered 1800 books to the record which helps Goodreads files but she did not READ them. So, effective today, since I am reading my way through a stack of zines that will take me at least another year….this site has become useless to me. Did this happen when Amazon took over and they only want books that they actually sell themselves? Zines cost more than most paperback books, have a word count higher than a lot of books, have professional grade artwork and print quality and editing, the information on editors, writers, publisher, date of publication, page count and list of contents and photo of cover is all equal to a graphic novel or other books that lack ISBN numbers. Their only drawbacks as books are….they are limited editions, you cannot get them at your corner library or buy them on Amazon. I liked being able to see a page of covers of books and zines I have read but I don’t need it. Since my reading is only in competition with myself…I don’t need it for the challenge (since, as I said, that was fake news anyway), I did like seeing books read by others that interested me but my TBR pile is so high right now and my ‘to buy’ list is in the hundreds…I can afford to quit while I am ahead. It was fun while it lasted but like most things I like…it gets spoiled, discontinued or changed out of recognition. New brooms always want to put their fingerprints all over things and generally spoil what was great enough to bring it to their attention in the first place. Amazon has already priced its Kindle books out of my comfort zone. time to wipe their website off my computer’s memory.

As I logged on this morning:

52 books completed

30 books ahead of schedule

52/200 (26%)

View Challenge

February 10th it showed this and on 11th it wiped it  out, again, all the entries for zines entered since November 2017 are gone.

This is what it looked like this morning…I went in and reduced my challenge to 1 book before I copied this.




You have read 23 books of your goal of 1!

23/1 (2300%)

Dumb and dumber.


Reduced zines from 265 to 219.  Someone hates me.  I give up.



Watching The Weather Network

Curious and letting mind wander.  If, as a given, we believe in experts…like electing a President because he is supposedly an expert business man then:  it should be acknowledged that there are experts and knowledgeable men in all fields.  If you are not an expert on weather…and the people who are acknowledged as experts tell you that global warming is a fact and then tell you what is causing it and the signs and what we can do to stop it…why would you refuse to believe?    The President of the USA stated recently that global warming was fake news and as a reason he pointed to the cold weather happening right now.    He does no research, he speaks with no experts, he merely spouts and his ignorant followers believe.    The fact that all of the bizarre weather, including polar vortex, bomb cyclone of cold, floods in countless places in the world that never had them, more hurricanes in any given season and stronger ones year following year, wild fires in more places and more frequent and more devastating, plus tornadoes and tsunamis in conjunction with all the other disasters coming one upon the other in rapid succession, should be a strong hint for a wise person to do some research to discover the whys and wherefores.    Global warming can mean an equator too hot to live near and a north too cold to live near.

Listening to the men at the top, with the power to truly effect change, actually refusing to believe, is  like listening to flat earthers and those who believe we never put a man on the moon except those people do not have the power to help destroy the world.  Right now doing nothing or going backwards with policies in order to make a few men and corporations richer in the short term will increase the disasters and death and cost.  The blindness is unbelievable.

If Trump went to the hospital and a doctor diagnosed a brain tumor and said he needed an immediate operation…would he refuse to believe the doctor who is an expert in his field and listen to a faith healer instead or listen to the Koch brothers tell him he can make money by not having the surgery.  Refusing to believe in climate change is equally absurd.

I am watching the weather network to avoid new television shows that broadcast doom and gloom and conspiracy theories that are too close to the bone and depressing.  Old shows I have re-watched so often I need a break from them.  I spent the entire Christmas holidays watching  a Bones marathon.






Repost Charlie Steel


Those that have an open mind and are really aware—should know this is the beginning of a MAJOR decline in the safety and standard of living of citizens in the United States of America. It is a CALCULATED attack against the middle class and poor in this country.

Virtually every federal program that protects the people is being tampered with, cut, or gutted. There are far too many to mention them all, but here are a few:

Beginning of higher taxes, taxes on pension insurances, higher costs and fewer benefits with Medicare (an immediate 25 billion cut), lack of consumer protection, drilling, mining and an increase in oil and gas pipelines in protected areas including coastal waters, across Alaskan wild life refuges, in and across Indian reservations, in parks and monuments and government land.

An especially egregious rule that was eliminated is: Lack of protection for pesticides, (weed killers that affect nerves of adults and children and kill bees).

The list is endless:

Reduction of rules against banks, huge tax cuts to corporations and the very wealthy, which will result in a lack of money to run the country. The next step according to Paul Ryan and Marco Rubio is to attack Social Security and Medicare, calling them entitlement programs when they are programs financed out of the paychecks of all working Americans. (It is a planned move to destroy the middle class and their voice, while people struggle to meet living expenses, health care costs, choosing between life saving medicines and food.)

If you can think of a government program, a program intended to protect consumers, adults, children, it is being attacked. CHIP, a health program for severely ill children is NOT being renewed and will guarantee death and bankruptcy of parents and caretakers, trying to care for such children. Health Care and the ACA are under attack and rules passed to eliminate and cripple these programs will result in the DIRECT increase in health care costs for EVERYONE.

Education is being attacked and may be gutted further, student loan agreements are being voided, and graduate students must pay taxes while attending schools. Student loans are being cut or eliminated; school food programs for children are being gutted.

Programs for the poor are being eliminated or gutted. Meals to seniors are being cut or eliminated.

You name a program and the person appointed by this administration to run it, becomes the antithesis of that government agency. In every case, the new director advocating the exact opposite of what that program was designed to administer. In effect, this administration is destroying protection for the people and causing destruction of government. (That is of course with the exception of the Military-Industrial Complex—which is unnecessarily getting an ever growing increase in funds, causing the U.S. to spend 7 times more than any other country on earth for military equipment and endless wars. Thus, continuing to spend tax payer money on equipment and wars rather than on programs for the protection of people. Wars that benefit no one else except the very wealthy and their corporations).

The creation and passing of this tax bill and the political appointments are for those who have money and power and are against those who don’t.

The controlling politicians are working vigorously to give rights to the very wealthy and their corporations and to open U.S. land and resources for their exploitation. They are NOT protecting workers, pensions, health care, retirement, workers benefits and rights and could care less what happens to the middle class and the poor.

The planned gutting of rules and regulations, creating right to work states further eliminates the average workers ability to unite and ask for fair wages and labor protection. This month and year marks a distinct INCREASE of money from labor in and out of the United States going to the top. Fair treatment of labor is being eliminated. Corporations that started and earned their wealth in the U.S., think nothing of becoming unpatriotic, refusing to pay their fair share in taxes, closing their factories (eliminating workers who made that company what it is and has become) and moving overseas, to benefit even more from cheap labor and fewer environmental regulations.


It is a terrible thing to state the obvious but I felt compelled to do so. What do you think?

So says Charlie Steel PhD


I needed to save this where I can find it…. so I can reread .  It says exactly what I have been thinking over the past year as I watch the news and see the Tweets and listen to people talk.  Weeding truth from fiction and coming to my own conclusions and then hearing them stated cogently.  Anxiety rising.